David Brainerd: Transformed by Beholding Christ
Some would say that David Brainerd was a bit of an Eeyore. He was described by Jonathan Edwards as being “by his constitution and natural temper, so prone to melancholy and dejection of Spirit.”1 Elsewhere Edwards noted that Brainerd distinguished himself in that “he exceeded all melancholy persons that ever I was acquainted with.”2 Despite this glass-half-empty disposition, a reviewer commenting on a freshly published edition of Brainerd’s memoirs in 1885—some 140 years after his death—said this about him:
Fifty years ago the name of David Brainerd was a household word in thousands of Christian homes throughout the country. It had been a vital force in moulding the new missionary era… And what a vital force, too, it had been in moulding the piety of the American churches for nearly a hundred years!3
How is it that Brainerd, a man so afflicted by a depressed spirit, was able to make such a lasting impact on the spirituality of the Americas and the Western missions movement? In this article, I will answer that question by considering the lasting relevancy of David Brainerd’s spirituality. I will demonstrate this by providing a summary of the major events of Brainerd’s life; then, I will present the transformation of his understanding of God’s grace in Christ in his own words; and, last, I will apply his precious and hard-earned insights to the modern-day believer to show their enduring value.
A Somber Beginning
David Brainerd was born in 1718 in Haddam, Connecticut. He was the third of five sons who, in addition to four daughters, would eventually fill the house of Hezekiah and Dorothy Brainerd. However, young David’s life was not destined to be one of familial sublimity and ease; instead, it was marked by grief. By the time Brainerd was fourteen, he had already been fatherless for five years and had lately added to that wound the death of his mother.4
It is possible that these losses were significant contributors to Brainerd’s glum disposition. However, there were other factors at play as well. Piper writes that—in addition to these grievous losses—“David probably inherited some kind of physical tendency to depression.”5 About the years of his youth Brainerd himself wrote, “I was from my youth somewhat sober, and inclined rather to melancholy than the contrary extreme…”6 Another source of his introspective gloom was his concern for the lostness of his own soul. Brainerd had been richly blessed by having a family full of Puritans; indeed, many of his relatives and grandparents were involved in ministry.7 However, despite these positive influences, he consistently failed to understand the good news of Christ.
The Vice of Hyper-Calvinism
Brainerd, reflecting on his experience as a seven or eight-year-old, writes that “I became concerned for my soul, and terrified at the thoughts of death, and was driven to the performance of duties: but it appeared a melancholy business…”8 Brainerd supposed that the performance of these duties, or good works, in themselves contributed to his peace with God—that in some way they gave him a greater likelihood of being truly converted. As a thirteen-year-old he “sometimes hoped that I was converted, or at least in a good and hopeful way for heaven and happiness, not knowing what conversion was.”9
Six years later, in 1737, Brainerd was nineteen and working on his farm in Durham, Connecticut. During this time of rural labor, he was subject to,
frequently longing, from a natural inclination, after a liberal education… I became very strict, and watchful over my thoughts, words, and actions; and thought I must be sober indeed, because I designed to devote myself to the ministry; and imagining I did dedicate myself to the Lord.10
With a new aspiration to enter the ministry, he doubled-down on his religious activities: he read his bible often, met frequently with others for prayer, listened to and then recounted sermons to himself, and even separated himself from young people to associate himself “with grave elderly people”.11 Summarizing, he described himself: “In short, I had a very good outside, and rested entirely on my duties, though not sensible of it.”12
For all these activities, he had not yet joined the church. He did not believe that he had been converted—Brainerd had subconsciously imbibed the hypercalvinism of his era. He held to the false belief that he did not yet have a sufficiently legitimate warrant to be truly converted. He wrote that:
…sometimes there appeared mountains before me to obstruct my hopes of mercy; and the work of conversion appeared so great, that I thought I should never be the subject of it. I used, however to pray and cry to God, and perform other duties with great earnestness; and thus hoped by some means to make the case better.13
Brainerd was caught between the tripartite vice of hypercalvinism, his legalistic works, and his own sense of despair; he did not comprehend the love of God the Father that was held out for him in Christ, nor did he yet fathom the richness of Christ’s all-sufficiency. The following quotation is worth citing at length because it reveals the protracted, shadowy night into which his sinful introspection had thrown himself:
And though, hundred of times, I renounced all pretences of any worth in my duties, as I thought, even while performing them, and often confessed to God that I deserved nothing for the very best of them, but eternal condemnation; yet still I had secret hope of recommending myself to God by my religious duties. When I prayed affectionately, and my heart seemed in some measure to melt, I hoped God would be thereby moved to pity me… Though at times the gate appeared so very straight, that it looked to next to impossible to enter, yet, at other times, I flattered myself that it was not so very difficult, and hoped I should by diligence and watchfulness soon gain the point. Sometimes after enlargement in duty and considerable affection, I hoped I had made a good step towards heaven; imagined that God was affected as I was, and that he would hear such sincere cries, as I called them.14
Loane poetically reflects on Brainerd’s state, “…a sense of guilt and lack of peace still haunted his mind, and he found that there was nothing stable in the inner world of private feelings. He would look with sensitive interest into the pools of his own heart, and he could see nothing in their troubled depths to reflect back the image of Christ.”15
Daybreak
Praise God, Brainerd’s case was not hopeless. Loane waxes, “…his cry had been heard, and the end was at hand. Light shone at last, and with that flash from the sun of glory, he caught sight of ‘the king in his beauty’ (Isa. 33:17).”16 Brainerd recounts his conversion with these precious words:
I continued, as I remember, in this state of mind, from Friday morning till the sabbath evening following, (July 12, 1739,) when I was walking again the same solitary place, where I was brought to see myself lost and helpless, as before mentioned. Here, in a mournful melancholy state, I was attempting to pray; but found no heart to engage in that or any other duty; my former concern, exercise, and religious affections were now gone. I thought the Spirit of God had quite left me; but still was not distressed: yet disconsolate, as if there was nothing in heaven or earth could make me happy. Having been thus endeavoring to pray—though, as I thought, very stupid and senseless—for nearly half an hour, then, as I was walking in a dark thick grove, unspeakable glory seemed to open to the view and apprehension of my soul… it was a new inward apprehension or view that I had of God, such as I never had before, nor anything which had the least resemblance of it. I stood still, wondered and admired! I knew that I never had seen before anything comparable to it for excellency and beauty…17
Thus, Brainerd was forever changed because the Father granted him, through the blessed work of the Spirit, to behold the beautiful Christ (John 6:40). His countless hours of toil in religious practices were of no avail—they only more firmly fixed the blindfold about his eyes. But now, the veil was removed: Brainerd saw Christ! The Father had made him alive and transferred him from the domain of darkness to the kingdom of his beloved Son (Col. 1:13).
A New Disposition
Brainerd relished this fact: he had been transformed by beholding Christ. The Lord uprooted his sinful pride and sowed in him a new heart that yearned to serve his Savior. He wrote, “Thus God, I trust, brought me to a hearty disposition to exalt him, and set him on the throne, and principally and ultimately to aim at his honour and glory, as King of the universe.”18
While clouds of depression, disappointment, and illness would still sometimes obstruct Brainerd’s vision of his kind Redeemer, his life was thereafter characterized by a “passionate longing for and a fervent dedication to that glorious Divine Being.”19
Difficulty at Yale College
In an effort to placard Christ the Savior, Brainerd entered Yale College in 1739 to fulfill the education requirement for ordination as a minister. It was during his time at Yale that the Great Awakening began in New England. George Whitefield himself stopped there but only reflected,
“..I was obliged to say of your College that your light was become darkness… A dead ministry will always make a dead people. Whereas, if ministers are warmed with the love of God themselves, they cannot but be instruments of diffusing that love among others.20
Brainerd yearned to be one of those ministers who was warmed by the radiant love of God. However, the faculty of the College were in doubt about the spirituality of the so-called “New Lights” and their revival. Brainerd dismissed the concern of the faculty and “attended [New Light] meetings when forbidden to do so, and criticized one of the tutors as having “no more grace than a chair.”21 His foolish comment was repeated to the rector of the College, and he was consequently expelled. For his sin, Brainerd repented and asked for forgiveness, but he was not remitted to the College.
Brainard’s expulsion posed a serious problem: if he could not obtain an undergraduate degree, he would not be able to achieve ordination and receive a license to preach. It seemed that with his removal from Yale, his hope for pastoral ministry had also ended. But God—in his sovereign plan—ordained it so that even this depressing event would turn out for good.
A Desire for the Heathen to Behold Christ
Brainerd went to study under Reverend Mr. Mills of Ripton.22 It was while he was with Reverend Mills that Brainerd became increasingly concerned for the “advancement of Christ’s kingdom in the world” and began to have “much pleasure in the prospect of the heathen being brought home to Christ”.23 He desired that others might behold the same Christ who had delivered him and was changing him.
Indeed, it was through the continual beholding of Christ, and being sweetly melted by him, that Brainerd was continually being transformed. Consider the following journal entry from Wednesday, April 14: “My soul longed for communion with Christ, and for the mortification of indwelling corruption, especially spiritual pride. O there is a sweet day coming, wherein the weary will be at rest! My soul has enjoyed much sweetness this day in the hopes of its speedy arrival.”24
On April 1, 1743, Brainerd left the home of Mr. Mills and relocated to Kaunaumeek (which is located in present-day Massachusetts) to minister to the Native Americans.25 He had been ordained as a missionary by the Society in Scotland for Propagating Christian Knowledge.26 This both comported with his desire to preach the gospel to the heathens and his limitation of not being able to be ordained as a pastor due to his lack of education. Brainerd ministered to that tribe for about a year but saw very little fruit.
Revival Along the Susquehanna
Rather, it would be among the Delaware tribe along the Susquehanna River that Brainerd would see Christ most radically exalted among the natives. He began preaching there in June of 1745, at the age of twenty-seven.27 The following are portions of his journal entries from his initial week among them:
Saturday, June 22. About noon rode to the Indians again; and near night preached to them. Found my body much strengthened, and was enabled to speak with abundant plainness and warmth. And the power of God evidently attended the word; so that sundry persons were brought under great concern for their souls, and made to shed many tears, and to wish for Christ to save them.
Thursday, June 27. My soul rejoiced to find, that God enabled me to be faithful, and that he was pleased to awaken these poor Indians by my means. O how heart-reviving and soul-refreshing is it to me to see the fruit of my labours!28
Brainerd was not only delighted to behold Christ himself but it was also clearly his boundless joy to witness others call out to Christ and receive his grace. Such was his zeal and the desire of the natives in the surrounding country that Brainerd established a preaching circuit by which he would visit several different settlements to preach to them on a regular basis. What transpired was a miniature revival.
The simple gospel that Brainerd held out for them laid bare their sinfulness and their total inability to rescue themselves while displaying the all-sufficiency of Christ to save. An entry in his journal from a few months later records this: “My thoughts ran with freedom, and I saw and felt what a glorious subject the death of Christ is for glorified souls to dwell upon in their conversation. Oh, the death of Christ! How infinitely precious!”29 It was this infinitely precious Christ that Brainerd proclaimed to the natives along the Susquehanna. Piper writes that, “There are a few indians—perhaps several hundred—who, now and for eternity, owe their everlasting life to the direct love and ministry of David Brainerd.”30
Declining Health
Brainerd’s ministry was like a match: it burned hot and fast. As early as his days at Yale, there was evidence that Brainerd had contracted tuberculosis; ever since the disease had lay dormant in his body. The demands of his preaching circuit and many nights spent in the open wilderness began to wear heavily upon him. In April of 1747, after nearly a year and a half along the Susquehanna laboring among the fledgling native church, he returned to New England to recover his health. When it became clear that his prognosis was bleak, he retired to the home of Jonathan Edwards and lived out his remaining months there.
These months were often heavy with melancholy but as the day of his death drew nearer, Brainerd spoke of “longing desires after death, through a sense of the excellency of a state of perfection.”31 On Monday, Sept 7, he wrote:
This evening, when I was in great distress of body, my soul longed that God should be glorified: I saw there was no heaven but this. I could not but speak to the bystanders then of the only happiness, viz. pleasing God. O that I could forever live to God! The day, I trust is at hand, the perfect day. Oh, the day of deliverance from all sin.”32
It was the following month on October 9, 1747 that Brainerd died at the age of twenty-nine. Edwards wrote, “his soul, as we may well conclude, was received by his dear Lord and Master, as an eminently faithful servant…”.33
Brainerd’s Valuable Insights for Modern Believers
We now return to the question that was posed at the beginning of this article: How is it that Brainerd, a man so afflicted by a depressed spirit, was able to make such a lasting impact on the spirituality of the Americas and the Western missions movement? Indeed, Brainerd’s testimony was a chief catalyst for William Carey to sail to India.34 His expulsion from Yale College was a key factor in the founding of Princeton College in 1746 in an effort to train ministers.35 Missionaries and pastors for centuries have clung to Brainerd as an exemplar, and sought to imitate him. How can this be so?
I propose that the reason Brainerd’s life was so impactful is because of the greatness of his Lord. Brainerd in himself was a feeble, depressed, and overly-introspective man. But when the Father was pleased to reveal Christ to Brainerd, he came alive. His affections were renewed, and as he continued to behold Christ—despite his own weakness and difficulties—he was transformed from one degree of glory to another by the Spirit (2 Cor 3:18).
He was compelled by the glory of Christ to preach the gospel to the heathen, which ultimately cost him his life. But Christ was worth it. Shortly before his death, Brainerd wrote this in a letter to his brother, “I declare, now I am dying, I would not have spent my life otherwise for the whole world.”36 It is this zeal, this comprehension of the exceeding value of Christ, that makes Brainerd so durably relevant. He was a man who could say with Paul, “I count everything as loss because of the surpassing worth of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have suffered the loss of all things and count them as rubbish, in order that I may gain Christ” (Phil 3:8 ESV). In short, David Brainerd was able to make such a lasting influence on American spirituality and Western missions because he was a trophy of God’s amazing, all-sufficient grace.
Conclusion
The application for the modern-believer is simple: Christ is sufficient. Though we may be tempted to think complex marketing initiatives, the newest missions paradigm, and the most polished individuals are what is required to make much of Christ, that is patently false. Brainerd reminds us that “Christ is his own attraction.”37 May we in the 21st century be as ardent to preach Christ and his glorious gospel!
Notes
1Jonathan Edwards, The Works of Jonathan Edwards, vol. 2 (Banner of Truth Trust, 1974), 314. Emphasis original.
2Edwards, 314.
3George L. Prentiss, “Historical Theology. Review of Memoirs of Rev. David Brainerd, Missionary to the Indians of North America Edited by J. M. Sherwood,” The Presbyterian Review VI, no. 21–24 (1885): 366.
4Edwards, 316. Information in this paragraph was drawn from Edwards’ biography.
5John Piper, The Hidden Smile of God: The Fruit of Affliction in the Lives of John Bunyan, William Cowper, and David Brainerd, (Wheaton, Ill.: Crossway Books, 2008), 124.
6Edwards, 316.
7Marcus L. Loane, They Were Pilgrims (Sydney, AU: Angus and Robertson, 1970), 3.
8Edwards, 316.
9Edwards, 316.
10Edwards, 316. Emphasis original.
11Edwards, 316.
12Edwards, 317. Emphasis original.
13Edwards, 317.
14Edwards, 317. Emphasis original.
15Loane, 4.
16Loane, 4.
17Edwards, 319. Emphasis original.
18Edwards, 319. Emphasis original.
19David Wynbeek, David Brainerd: Beloved Yankee (Grand Rapids, MI: Eerdmans Publishing Co., 1961), 19.
20Luke Tyerman, Life of Whitefield, vol. I (London: Hodder and Stoughton, 1876), 496.
21Samuel Macauley Jackson, ed., The New Schaff-Herzog Encyclopedia of Religious Knowledge: Embracing Biblical, Historical, Doctrinal, and Practical Theology and Biblical, Theological, and Ecclesiastical Biography from the Earliest Times to the Present Day (New York; London: Funk & Wagnalls, 1908–1914), 251.
22Edwards, 321.
23Edwards, 321.
24Edwards, 322.
25Edwards, 333.
26Jackson, 251.
27Edwards, 359.
28Edwards, 359.
29Edwards, 362. Emphasis original.
30Piper, 158.
31Edwards, 382. Emphasis original.
32Edwards, 382. Emphasis original.
33Edwards, 386.
34John D. Woodbridge and Frank A. James III, Church History Volume Two: From Pre-Reformation to the Present Day (Grand Rapids, MI: Zondervan Academic, 2013), 404.
35Robert Glover, The Progress of World-Wide Missions (New York: Harper and Row, Publishers, 1952, orig. 1924), 55. Cited in John Piper, The Hidden Smile of God (Wheaton, IL: Crossway Books, 2001), 157.
36Edwards, 438.
37C. H. Spurgeon, “Christ Lifted Up,” in The New Park Street Pulpit Sermons, vol. 3 (London: Passmore & Alabaster, 1857), 261–262.